My cousin posted this on facebook, and I "liked" it. As a working mom, sometimes I feel I have a lot more on my plate than my stay-at-home-mom counterparts. This picture did not cause a firestorm of angry comments or anything, it just started swirling the thoughts around my brain. I have actually had the best of both worlds, so I feel that I have the experience to back up what I'm about to write. (At least, I hope I do.)
I wrestle with being a work-outside-of-the-home-mom on a daily basis. When I started meeting friends who have the privilege of staying home (yes, I said privilege), I began to notice the sympathetic tone I received when I said I had a job, albeit part-time (only in the sense that anything below 35 hours is part-time, which I think is a load of you-know-what). I know that's not what's conveyed, but then I do feel slightly defensive about working. Sometimes, I just want to give all the reasons why I work:
Because I was too stupid to save money and plan ahead of time.
Because I married the wrong guy the first time around.
Because I started off as a single mom and didn't have a choice.
Because we rely on my income!
Thankfully, my SAHM friends are super-cool, so I've never felt like I'm less of a mom because staying home isn't really an option. Oh sure, I've seen the pinterest pins and blog headlines: "Our family of 8 lives on less than $30,000 a year!" "How we went from 2 incomes to 1!" I'm sure that somehow, some way, a huge sacrifice could be made that our family of less people could live on a salary larger than that. I understand that a lot of moms don't hold an outside job because their wages would mainly be paying for child care, which really negates their salary. However, I made a vow to myself when Averey was born that I would not put my child(ren) in a day care setting. It is the one promise I've held fast as a mother. I've been blessed from the get-go to have wonderful SAHM moms to watch my girls in their (and our) homes, only paying for the days they are sitting, and thus, saving us money, and often times from illness. Since Jake and I have been married, his mother chips in to watch the girls, get Averey off the bus, and save us a bundle of money! For us, we are still making money on top of child care.
I've also been fortunate enough to hold jobs that give me days off during the week, the ability to cut back to "part-time", and spend three months home at a time because of maternity leave. I've been able to have somewhat of a SAHM experience (because the weekends don't count). I will admit that my perception of stay-at-home-motherhood is an easier job FOR ME (speaking for no one else here, I promise!), but that's because I've been working all along. Thus, I appreciate my time home, and while I can't keep my house clean, I at least feel I have the upper hand on most tasks, and I am able to handle the meal planning a bit better. Yet I know that staying at home is no easy job either, and I have great respect for my friends who only know motherhood by being at home with the screaming, fighting children running around like banshees (and all of the wonderful moments that go along with it too, of course).
It seems there are a lot of loud opinions out there about what's better for your children, whether you stay at home or work outside of the home. I think there's advantages to both situations. But because I may say that my children have never (or very very rarely) had separation anxiety, that may not have anything to do with my working; I could just have girls who could care less when I leave the room!
If anything, I've just learned that I love walking in the door when I get home from work to see my girls, even if it's chaos. I still manage to get the laundry done, the bills paid, the grocery lists made, and I've even been able to pass off the grocery shopping to Jake (apparently Giant is dead on Friday nights)! Yes, it can be overwhelming at times, and trying to get everyone ready on a Monday morning is not my idea of fun (you think I'd have it down pat by now). My hope is that someday my girls will appreciate the sacrifices we've made with me working, and even cutting my hours to have a little more time at home, because that's the best we can do for now.
No matter what your situation, one thing is for sure: we're in this mom gig together, and everyone has to make a choice about what's best for their family. As far as I know, there are no medals or prizes for what we choose. The happy, sweet, funny kids are our rewards. And you can have those regardless of whether you work or stay home. (At least, they have those characteristics most of the time.)
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